Guilt

Guilt is a tough issue for most moms, especially for mom's of children with RAD. After my post about Snuggling yesterday I did not do it. My child is so angry and we had some major issues yesterday. I was pretty angry and did not attempt a snuggle time. Then there is the guilt for not even trying. Instead of using my tool box I just became afraid myself and was angry. Fear is under the anger. I am afraid for his future. Today I got up and asked myself what would be different about today. I am going to try a couple of things. I began with prayer for forgiveness for some of yesterday's problems and then for guidance. I am going to use my positive self talk today. This consists of 6 things to remember. 1) First don't take his behavior personally.
2) Ask myself what his fear is. He is not angry with me but is so very afraid of love. I think he is afraid he cannot do it now that therapy is over. We will talk again about this. 3)Remember the scared little boy inside the monster suit. 4)Take care of myself. I did not work out yesterday or the day before. I must do that today and take some time alone. Make sure I set aside a quiet time. 5)Think logically. Do not allow emotions to rule my thoughts. I have been taught the tools to parent this child. Use them. 6) Take care of the healthy relationships in my life. Focus on those more of the time. This plan gives me strength. I hope you are feeling strong. I hope you find strength today too. ""For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind." (2 Tim. 1:7)