This is an odd one. I was just speaking of this with a friend last night. They constantly push us away. They are offensive in an effort to make us not want to be close. And yet if I drop him off at the pool and the life guard tells me every 5 minutes he asked her "When is my mom coming back? Where is my mom?" This was just last month and he knew I went to get my hair done. I was gone an hour. He is 15 years old. During church he periodically turns around to look at me and tries to force eye contact. Last night I went out to pull the Jimmy into the garage and they both started asking with panic in their voices "Where are you going? What are you doing?" It does not make sense and yet it really does. They do not want us to be emotionally close and yet they have such a fear of abandonment. No trust. So when they see me walk out the door it brings back all those feelings of fear. I generally just reassure and sometimes I say nothing. Either way the only way they will learn this mom always comes back is by watching me do so. So I carry on as usual and hope someday the trust will develop.
