Wednesday, December 9, 2009

Best laid plans

Well now, wasn't yesterday's post nice? Bwahahahahahaha! We went out for lunch. I bought them new boots. We went to Movie Gallery and got DVDs. About half way through this process they let me know this was way to much closeness for them. We got home and I asked them to finish shoveling which erupted into screams of "YOU ARE SUCH A JERK" and "THIS IS WHY WE ARE ALWAYS MAD AT YOU". They do not get the idea of give and take relationships. They can not get their cup full. So....now that we have 18" of snow and are housebound we will have a quiet day. Mom will not be working on entertaining them today as she is exhausted from their words yesterday. So exhausted in fact that she may just work on Christmas cards, study for a final exam and take a little mini brain vacation. They are so afraid of closeness. So very afraid. Gentle touch, loving eyes. "I'm sorry Teddy. I'd love to take you out for lunch but I am so tired today from what happened yesterday I just can't do it." I'm not sure but I'm thinking that grout in the kitchen needs scrubbed. Does it look dirty to you?

Have a healing day!

4 comments:

SanitySrchr said...

Grout needs cleaned?? Two of mine just recently polished all of the windows in my sun room. (A monsterous chore!) Theraputic, I'd say!!!

Brenda said...

Scrubbing grout with a toothbrush is also theraputic! : )

waldenbunch said...

I always love your hope and optimism. You can tell it's Christmas for all of us! Too scary to feel good and be happy. But yes, it IS better than last year. Bless you!

peggysue said...

I was so glad to read this post, I don't know how I missed it except I haven't check for a few days because we've been mired down in repetitive RAD behaviors that really dragged me down emotionally. I felt like an orange that has been squeezed dry, not once but several times. Church yesterday helped refresh me somewhat, but when DD came up to me all sticky sweet, which is her reaction to a string of bad days, she thinks she can 'charm' us back to giving out privileges, I had to tell her I needed a little bit of space because of the day before. I loved her, but I was very tired and worn out. So I'm glad to know that I'm not the only one who needs this space sometimes.