Sunday, January 27, 2008

Invisible mom or invisible son?



Which way is it? Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm. Everyone talks about the brick wall kids with RAD have built up round them. I think sometimes it is like the force field Invisible girl has in front of her. I can't get in. But then sometimes I feel like I am invisible and he doesn't see me. Doesn't see who I am. Can't see who I am. Whichever way it is, would you believe it is a sign of improvement? It used to be that I was the enemy. To be feared, shunned and blocked at every opportunity. As he slowly begins to trust my son is getting closer, quieter but still doesn't see me. He is mulling it over. Our youngest son did the same before he had his breakthrough. It is a transition time between total chaos /fear and trust. I hope not to be Invisible Mom for long, but it is better then when I was The Thing!

5 comments:

Tami Boesiger said...

Oh Brenda, I pray his breakthrough will come soon. I hope it is encouraging to you to see some of the same signs R. had. Come quickly, Lord.

Denise said...

Here's my thought, for whatever it's worth. I don't think either one of you is invisible - I think he is just now finally seeing you in the right way for the first time and he needs to process that. You, the real you, the woman he has been wanting to avoid getting to know is now VISIBLE! It's as if the fog has lifted on your bridge and now that he can see you more clearly, he is getting up the nerve to take that first step. It sounds like he is preparing himself for the scariest, yet most rewarding walk of his life. I'll ask God to give Him the strength, courage, and gentle push that he needs to get started! I'll be praying, my friend! I'll be praying!

Brenda said...

Denise,

You could be right but he is definitely holding back. Therapy will be interesting this week. Thank you to both you and Tami for your prayers.

Rachelle said...

Liked Denise's thoughts. I too pray for progress soon.

Renee said...

Brenda - No valuable input, just wanted to say how much I enjoy your use of graphics. Very nice.